Tuesday, 9 July 2013

NEW College, NEW life

whazzup???!!!! I am fine here at INTEC. It is alright here I guess. I am breathing and kicking albeit I've to admit that I have changed. A LOT. I got no idea why the change but I guess it is for the best perhaps. I have been quite quiet lately, no really want to talk to others, shutting myself up, doing my own work, being in self-denial. All these attitudes weren't my own attitude but I feel like I have to change so that people cant hurt me any more. I have had enough of hurting from others because I used to expose the real me to them. I have fallen down and climbed back again and again and to speak the truth, I AM TIRED OF IT!!!! So, I found that it is crucial for me to mask myself. THE FAKER THE BETTER. I want a fresh start in INTEC.


Another thing about me is that I find myself being afraid to interact with the opposite sex AGAIN. ARGHHHHHH!!!! I feel so awkward to even look at them not including saying hi and bye. SERIOUSLY, WHATS WRONG WITH ME????? I have no idea. But one thing for sure, I AINT NO LESBIAN. PUHLEASSSSSSSE =.=||| I hereby confess and swear that I am perfectly straight, so dont judge me okey. ="( I jut have that stupid "boy-phobia" back.


Thats all for now. SEE YEA SOON.

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