recovery

Sometimes, it is very hard to get over the hurt and rejection. However, life is not fair at all. You have to embrace the unfairness and failure to make sure you've learnt the lesson and grow up. I don't know how I would take the repercussions of my dang curiosity but I am healing, painfully and slowly. I vow to myself that I will be stronger and more powerful to resist myself from breaking down. No one can hurt me. Sometimes, life is not a bed of roses, it comes with the unseen/hidden thorns that are waiting for foolish careless people to be poked by them to make their presence known.

I will stand strong, I will become more heartless. I will built my defences up with tougher and better bricks.  Good bye old memories. We might be fated or not but we are not destined to be together. I shall let you go, cause you have never been and will not be a part of my precious life.

NEW College, NEW life

whazzup???!!!! I am fine here at INTEC. It is alright here I guess. I am breathing and kicking albeit I've to admit that I have changed. A LOT. I got no idea why the change but I guess it is for the best perhaps. I have been quite quiet lately, no really want to talk to others, shutting myself up, doing my own work, being in self-denial. All these attitudes weren't my own attitude but I feel like I have to change so that people cant hurt me any more. I have had enough of hurting from others because I used to expose the real me to them. I have fallen down and climbed back again and again and to speak the truth, I AM TIRED OF IT!!!! So, I found that it is crucial for me to mask myself. THE FAKER THE BETTER. I want a fresh start in INTEC.


Another thing about me is that I find myself being afraid to interact with the opposite sex AGAIN. ARGHHHHHH!!!! I feel so awkward to even look at them not including saying hi and bye. SERIOUSLY, WHATS WRONG WITH ME????? I have no idea. But one thing for sure, I AINT NO LESBIAN. PUHLEASSSSSSSE =.=||| I hereby confess and swear that I am perfectly straight, so dont judge me okey. ="( I jut have that stupid "boy-phobia" back.


Thats all for now. SEE YEA SOON.